Max Cleland, decorated Vietnam war hero, triple amputee, head of the Department of Veterans Affairs under President Carter, and PTSD sufferer, who came to that knowledge in later life, decades after his military service, has written a new book, called Heart of a Patriot: How I Found the Courage to Survive Vietnam, Walter Reed and Karl Rove.
There was an interview with Cleland on NPR's Morning Edition yesterday, October 6, 2009, linked here.
But most interesting for our purposes -- since this blog is about combat veterans and PTSD -- is the "open letter" to other veterans that Cleland writes, and which is excerpted as part of the NPR piece.
"As combat veterans," he writes, "we have been through some of the most traumatic life experiences possible. War is as close to hell on earth as anything ever could be. That does make us different from our loved ones back home. War marks us all, some more deeply than others."
There's some wonderful, heart-felt expression in this letter:
"The soldier's lot is to be exposed to traumatic, life-threatening events — happenings that take us to places no bodies, minds, or souls should ever visit. It is a journey to the dark places of life — terror, fear, pain, death, wounding, loss, grief, despair, and hopelessness. We have been traumatized physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. Some of us cope with exposure to hell better than others. Some are able to think of their combat experiences as but unpleasant vignettes in a long and wonderful life. It is not to those veterans I am speaking. I love them, but I am not afraid for them.
I am speaking to the rest of my brothers and sisters, those who find themselves trapped in the misery of memories as I was for so long. For them, I am afraid.To those veterans I say, you are not alone.
Many of us have been overwhelmed by war. Many of us have been unable to cope on our own with what has happened to us or with what we have done. Many of us have been left hopeless, lost, and confused about ourselves and our lives in ways we never thought possible.
That does not make us victims. It makes us veterans."
The rest of the open letter is equally wonderful, and well worth reading. In it, Cleland talks about his own personal highs and lows, what he understands about PTSD and his own case, and what has helped him get through. It's clear the concern and caring he feels for other combat vets. The letter is linked here.